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furious rose with her opiate eyes...i'm not running away i'm not running away
Created on 2005-03-03 17:43:28 (#6332324), last updated 2008-06-08
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Basic Info| Name: | opiateyes |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 1983-09-06 |
| Location: | United States |
BioI’m not a liar.
I am not naturally a liar.
My stories are told plain and flat with very little added humor. The humor must be found in the happening. I’ve had enough happen in my life bizarre and unbelievable, funny and embarrassing, to intrigue most people, but then, if people were honest, they all have something to share, something unbelievable and original, if only for it’s truth to them. But most people are caught framing their humor to cast themselves in a pleasing light.
I have not learned this instinct. I was ridiculed in school. Left no option of self-aggrandizing story telling. My stories were told for me to a mocking crowd of oglers.
It’s not self assurance in who I am or a disconcern for what others think but only an inability to effectively manipulate myself to another’s liking, to anyone’s liking, including my own. There is what I am and there is what I’ve done. I continue to sustain my life as it is and speak to convey to others what my life’s been.
What events will others find of interest? Oh, to be insane, to be insane and not worry. To let others be nervous of me and what I might do.
I often flirt with my insanity, or rather, as with all my non-existent flirting, think of flirting with it, only to cower when it approaches.
While I feel it close, I’m sure it’s even closer than I think.
I see it, flickering around the edges, playing with me, pawing at me.
To be ruled by it would be okay, but to be lost in it a horror.
Heart of hot liquid seeping toward my back.
Cold fear encasing the pain within my chest, squeezing tight to make it small, yet feeling large, like a cutting tooth felt with the tongue. Creating an overflowing abyss.
--September 2004
I am completely open to any questions/comments.
I am not naturally a liar.
My stories are told plain and flat with very little added humor. The humor must be found in the happening. I’ve had enough happen in my life bizarre and unbelievable, funny and embarrassing, to intrigue most people, but then, if people were honest, they all have something to share, something unbelievable and original, if only for it’s truth to them. But most people are caught framing their humor to cast themselves in a pleasing light.
I have not learned this instinct. I was ridiculed in school. Left no option of self-aggrandizing story telling. My stories were told for me to a mocking crowd of oglers.
It’s not self assurance in who I am or a disconcern for what others think but only an inability to effectively manipulate myself to another’s liking, to anyone’s liking, including my own. There is what I am and there is what I’ve done. I continue to sustain my life as it is and speak to convey to others what my life’s been.
What events will others find of interest? Oh, to be insane, to be insane and not worry. To let others be nervous of me and what I might do.
I often flirt with my insanity, or rather, as with all my non-existent flirting, think of flirting with it, only to cower when it approaches.
While I feel it close, I’m sure it’s even closer than I think.
I see it, flickering around the edges, playing with me, pawing at me.
To be ruled by it would be okay, but to be lost in it a horror.
Heart of hot liquid seeping toward my back.
Cold fear encasing the pain within my chest, squeezing tight to make it small, yet feeling large, like a cutting tooth felt with the tongue. Creating an overflowing abyss.
--September 2004
I am completely open to any questions/comments.
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